Climbing out of a rut

Things have been awful. The stress at work has pulled me down further than I thought possible and I've not been myself. I don't want to go into it here (it's not the place, right?) but a colleague has hacked me off. He's in the wrong and everyone knows it, but its really brought me down.

I deferred my Connemara race to next year. I simply couldn't get fit in time and when I told Graeme I would only be there as support for him and Paul there was a huge sigh of relief from him. He wanted to pull out due to his groin injury and Paul couldn't afford to go. It all worked out well and Ray from Connemara very kindly deferred all 3 places. This took a lot of pressure off and with Williams and Shaun's guidance, I entered the 24 hour race in May that I couldn't do last year because of injury and have talked the lovely Kerry into being my support runner during the night. I'm already really looking forward to it.

Training stopped almost immediately after entering the race due to a very very bad cold. Everyone else who gets it is calling it flu, but although it was enough to put me in bed for nearly 3 days, I didn't get all the aches and pains a flu often brings. I'm still coughing a lot, but I'm through the worst of it now.

Everything at work came to a head yesterday and I sat in my office fuming. My lovely receptionist Emma told me to take a different perspective but I didn't want to listen to reason. As I drove home I realised that the situation had made me feel poorly, caused a huge lack of focus at work and made me feel more depressed than I have for a long time. Then I remembered a saying.... "Hating someone is like taking poison yourself and expecting the other person to die"
I then received an email from my diet coach Ania (as I have won three months free with her). The email was all about being a victim because of the actions of others. It inspired me (firstly) to write this blog and it inspired me to start dragging myself out of this rut.

I start training again tonight with a set of squats. I've been given a new training programme and I'm looking forward to tackling it. It seems I've been training for so long on an "adjusted" programme due to injury, so it feels good to have another programme sorted for me.

And tomorrow, I see an NLP coach. As I've often wrote in earlier blogs, its something I'm very interested in. I've been to see Gary twice now and we get on well. Last week I had to write 4 pages on "My life story so far" and tomorrow we go through time line therapy. I'm advised its quite an upsetting process but that's all part and parcel of it.

So, its time to stop feeling like a victim and time to get on with things.... You know, dust yourself off and start all over again....