Fruit loop

*CUCKOO CUCKOO*
Oh yes... I have officially lost the plot! If you didn't think I was a full on fruit loop before, then this post will confirm that I truly am!

I have been reading a book called Mental Mastery by Ken Way... very educational, I can tell you. I skipped right to the "Injury" section today and looked into how I can help myself sort out my neuroma. It has to be said here that I have read some horror stories about not being able to run for months with this condition... even giving running up for good for some people, which has caused me some considerable concern over the last few weeks. As from Thursday I binned the anti inflammatories and have gone cold turkey... no painkillers, no icing... no nowt! I have been imagining that the neuroma is a little red lump and imagining it is getting smaller and less red...getting more pinky skin coloured.

Today, I read in the book that you can take yourself on a journey through your body (using whatever mode of transport you want... it's your imagination after all) and go to the site of the pain. It said you may be surprised by what you see and you should notice the colour and temperature of the injury. You then take yourself off to the opposite side of your body with no injury and notice the colour/temperature/appearance of the good side. Then you go back to the injured side and using whatever "tools" you want, you make it look the same as the uninjured side. Medically, of course, it's unlikely you would be correct in your assumptions of its actual appearance but that doesn't matter for this exercise. Sounds easy!

So, I'm in a blue oval shaped space ship (stop laughing... this is my imagination), and I whizz down the whole of my body (can't be arsed to do any sight seeing... jobs to do and all that), and as I travel over my kneecap and down my lower leg I'm impressed with my calf muscle... looking good girl! So, I get to my foot and it takes me a while to work out which section to go down... OK, found it... urghhhh! You've gotta be kidding me... WTF is THAT! I can't really see much because there is a thick red sticky substance which surrounds a big red mass... and it feels hot.
I whizz over to the other side and am surprised at the difference. This side is just nice by way of temperature, the structures either side of the nerve are like a creamy white colour, and the nerve is a pale blue colour. Jeez, seems I have some work to do.
Back over to the poorly side and I have a "blood hoover" on my space ship which vacuums up all of the sticky substance. It takes a while... there's quite a lot. I can now see the structures at the side which need to be cleaned down... I have an army of people cleaning them now, and a couple of others are on the nerve and are "sanding" the neuroma down and making it smaller and smaller. When it's practically gone, we inject anaesthetic into the nerve in 3 places which turns the nerve a pale blue and makes my two toes go numb.... NO, I'm not imagining this... my toes went numb!
The reason I have opened myself up to huge ridicule by blogging about this is because an hour later and my toes are still numb... exactly how they felt when injected with cortisone from the podiatrist. (Oh, and I should point out here that the numbness I had felt while on the anti-inflamms stopped, however was not my two toes either side of the neuroma but was the whole of my foot).
So the question is, am I a proper nutter? God yes!