Uncomfortable day

Today I went to an area meeting and it was the most uncomfortable I have felt in the whole time I've worked in this job. I have had a terrible month in March, and this month is no better.
Nobody made a big deal out of it... but I felt very embarrassed.
Chris (a friend who I joined the company with) phoned me on the way home and said he knew my facial expressions well enough to know how I was feeling. He is good friends with our district manager and assures me that I am highly thought of. Apparently I always fight for everything despite what is against me and it has generated respect.
I was grateful for the phone call... I also made Chris feel better as he told me his 3 year relationship has finished, and he is finding it hard. Apparently I made him feel so much better and positive, so, that's what friends are for eh?

I ran yesterday with Graeme. 6 miles and it was lovely. I ran today, intending to do 10 miles and cut it short because I felt sick. I don't think the chilli con carne, rice, carrots, peas, fish in breadcrumbs, tuna pasta, rocket, ham, chocolate cake and cream that I had at lunchtime sat well on my stomach. I have no idea why!!!

I saw a link today for an ultra race that someone kindly posted for me. I was so tempted, but it is maybe a bit far to be running by July. (70 miles)
I am also concerned about money. Graeme's solicitor sent a letter today to advise they have issued court proceedings. I was hoping the defendants would have settled out of court and then I wouldn't be so concerned over Graeme losing his job in the next week or so because money wouldn't be an issue. I suppose good things come to those who wait.....

Somebody (Lully) posted on Fetch today saying Happy Birthday Cabbey for the 17th. I thought that was lovely...although a day early, bless her. I look forward to meeting her in London as she seems a lovely girl.

On a spiritual note, last nights open circle was amazing. I didn't see/hear/feel anything but one of the mediums passed on the most random message to 2 people at opposite sides of the room and said it was a person who knew them both, (the 2 people had never met before last night). She went on for ages joking about how the lady had a fabulous sense of humour and would joke about Viagra and would bring to one of the people liquorice torpedoes. It was only after around 15 minutes when the man said he had always wanted to put flowers on her grave but she lived in Crook and it was too far. The woman said "What a coincidence, I live in Crook", "Did you know Maud?", He replied, "Yes, from the pub, that's who I wanted the flowers for"... how random is that?
Laura, one of the practising mediums spoke to me about Alex. I was annoyed that I couldn't see him that clearly again. She looked shocked and said it is so dense here on the Earth plane that it would have took him loads of energy to show himself so strongly and it was obviously important at the time, that he did. She said most people never see that vividly, and it would be unlikely I would see spirit like that very often. It put a whole new perspective on things for me. I'm maybe more sensitive to this than I thought.