Insomnia

I went to bed at a reasonable time last night and lay awake. I had got myself upset over information I had gleamed about the change from vegetarian to vegan (ethical stuff... I'll not go into it) and felt like over the last 6 months I may as well not have bothered. I had images in my head that I couldn't get rid of (no matter how hard I tried) and couldn't shake the negative feeling that I'm going to find it very hard to find places to eat because everything seems to have an animal by-product. And who the hell is going to want ME as a house guest?

I thought about how unreasonable my mam had been (I haven't agreed with her diet for years but I don't get on my high horse about it) and felt pretty much on my own. I'd have felt better if I could have had a talk to Graeme about it, but he was sleeping soundly.

So, when the alarm went off for Graeme at 4.55am I still hadn't closed my eyes. He reset it for 7am for me and I managed to get maybe one and a half hours sleep... I'm grateful for that!

I got up and had my first vegan breakfast, which was quite tasty and I enjoyed it. I put together the days' food and some other options that I can leave at work if I'm feeling hungry in between meals, and I ordered a book from the Vegan Society to help me make the correct shopping choices. I found that Pizza Hut, Pizza Express and Ask (just a few of the ones I can remember off the top of my head) ALL cater for vegans, I can still get the meat free soya stuff (just not the Quorn make) and all in all the change is not going to be as drastic as I first imagined.

I contacted Vegan Runners today too and asked how long I need to be a vegan before I can join their running club, so I am definitely feeling much happier than I was during the night. It was a horrible feeling lying awake wondering how you're going to cope with something that has become unavoidable. There again, things always seem better in the morning don't they?

So, deep water running tonight, and I have my recovery soya drink in the car ready for when I'm done. It seems things are very easy when you plan them out properly. I'm going to ask my mam if I can borrow her bread maker too (see if I can whip up my own loaf). No doubt she'll have a bit of a whinge at me again!

My foot is definitely improving. Where there used to be pain there is now a sort of numbness/tingly feeling. Hopefully that's a good thing!