Subliminal Messages

Well, last night I was determined to listen all the way through to the recording I have been meditating (if that's what it's classed as) to. Not that I think it's a secret version of The Catchers Rye and there are subliminal messages in there that will have me off murdering the next president, more I was interested to find out why I found myself thinking about the Navy yesterday, and incidents that happened 19 and a half years ago... yes, it really was that long ago.

To cut a very long meditation short, a part in the recording has been referring to the unconscious mind and asks to let go of experiences that are making life difficult for the conscious mind to cope with.... it then asks to pin point the actual event that has caused a lack of confidence in the present day and to bring it to the conscious mind to deal with it. I was floored... really ... did that event really affect me so badly? To be honest, I was shocked yesterday that thinking about it again in such detail made me cry for ages, but surely that hasn't made me have a lack of confidence in certain situations now!

Another funny thing about the recording is that it talks about being faced with a situation that would normally make you concerned or worried about not doing well, and it said that when faced with those thoughts you should override them with knowing that being unconfident is "Silly... it's just silly". Amazingly, yesterday when I was talking to Graeme about the prospect of not doing well at Grantham because it is going to be very muddy and I'm not used to running on that terrain, I followed up with saying "But there's no point in thinking like that, because it's just silly". Graeme thought this was highly amusing yesterday, that I would refer to this as being silly (I think it's a word I don't really use)... today he said "Bloody hell" when I told him about the recording.

So... the power of the mind eh? Amazing stuff.
Let's hope that it can help me overcome my foot issues. Fortunately, today I find I'm able to lift myself up on my foot without discomfort (I couldn't do that yesterday). It absolutely HAS to get better... this time next week I want to say I have done my first ultra.

So, it's swimming today (which bores me to death). I always feel like it's an hour of my life I'm never going to get back! There was an article in Runners World this month about Deep Water Running. I was over the moon to find details of a stockist for the Aqua shoes that I have been searching for. Excellent stuff... they can make DWR more difficult by around 30%, so I'm definitely getting myself a pair.