Humbled

I haven't blogged, because I haven't trained.
I wasn't the only one ill.... the dog is still poorly (however £103 at the vets means he's sorted out) and now Graeme is ill.
Tonight I do my first lot of training (apart from a 6 mile hilly trail walk last Sunday), and what better way to start but right in at the deep end with intervals.

My mind seems to be elsewhere at the moment though, after a visit to see a friend in hospital last night. She has had chronic backpain for years and finally pooled the £7000 together for an operation to help the injury. There were complications and a few hours later she was unable to feel anything from her waist down. The feeling has come back into one leg but everything else apart from that leg is completely paralysed. It looks as though it is permanent. She had an argument with her dad because he wants her to have a test where they put a sort of metal helmet on you and put some sort of electric pulse through your body to determin if there is anything that can be felt (and therefore gives the possibility of walking again). She doesn't want it. She says that if she is told a flat "No" she will have no reason to rehabilitate, and it's better if there is always a bit of hope.
She's very strong, although had a few tears (understandably). And she's getting no help money wise now. Another Fetchie (Miss P) gave me details of a charity she runs for (Aspire) who help with spinal cord injury patients. I looked at their website and they do everything from grants for equipment to housing and help with future independance. I have passed this information to my mam so she can give it to Jills' mam.

I am now in a quandry. Do I continue to fade into the background with my up and coming ultra and continue to not mention it to too many people, or do I tell the world and fundraise for a charity that for the first time in my life is actually important to me. I've fundraised before, but never had a personal reason for doing so. I'm blubbing now :-(